sick!

sorry! sorry i havent been posting lately! i have been on vacation! i had to go see my sister and all that. it sucked:( we had to always go out to eat and all that and it sucked! i purged most of what i ate anyways so i think i did good:) i hope so anyways. i checked my weight today and im 102! whoo!! i havent weighted that since last year! whoo go me:) i've very excited about this haha as you can probably tell.

while i was gone i decided to go to the local library:) i found the book stick figure and read that and i loved it! it was very good:) i just hate how they always suddenly get better it just is annoy to me i guess. i'm still waiting for my books to get here! they havent came yet:/ its annoying! i want them here way bad! i need something to inspire me! but today i got the book wasted:) i've heard good things about it so i hope its good i'll let everyone know how it is:)

well i hope everyone is doing good! stay strong loves! i hope everyone is doing good and im sorry for not posting:/ but i hope you all have been doing good! nothing tastes as good as thin feels<3
xoxo thin is beauty<3

apple apples apples!

since i can't post thinspo pictures, here's some great videos!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EF-zTNfVaB4&playnext=1&videos=oCkrDkRl2FA&feature=grec_index

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KmJSf87yKYs&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wRBd-KrRM_w

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vdeH6Jika2Y&feature=related

i hope that helps everyone:) im doing an apple diet. i decided i can't do my fast due to my raging pms that is making me want to eat everything in my kitchen so im allowing myself one apple a day. what i do is i take and apple and cut it into slices. i get two slices a meal which usually leaves me two slices left over for a snack. so far its going good! and to make it even better apples are negative calories so its basically like im not eating anything at all! i did it yesterday and today. but i will not be able to the next couple days. why? because im being forced to go to see my sister at college and do some school shopping. shopping im excited for the other thing not so much. but o well its worth it. im hoping all my shirts will be a size small and my pants all 0 like last year and not like in winter when i had to get a medium shirt and a 1 or 3 for pants. i hope im at least back to the size i was this time last year! that would be super duper great! i cannont wait until im a 00 which im sure i will be by the time i get to my goal weight! whoo 90 pounds here i come! i hope i really get there this time and stay there! wish me luck everyone! i hope everyone is doing great and i would love it if someone started talking to me on here! i feel like im just writing this everyday and no one is reading it! so if you read please comment saying what you think! that would be fantastic! thanks loves! stay strong!
xoxo thin is beauty<3

work out!

well i have plopped myself down on my couch extremely tired from working out for an hour. thats right a whole hour just making my butt look better ahaha. i burned 500 calories! a damn good work out i'd say for someone as lazy as me. but damn thats hard work! and for not eating for quiet a while like three or is it two days? but im doing pretty good i'd say. i always feel weird when you see those all old creepy guys that are like 90 on the elptical or whatever machine they are on. i just always feel like they are watching me why i dont know just like i have this thing where i walk around my house before i go to bed to make sure no one is here. why i dunno i just have a fear of someone like watching me sleep or something. i know its is a short entry but im tired and need a nap and a good book. maybe a bubble bath? well see! good luck loves! stay strong.
xoxo thin is beauty<3

starve sin hate?

so i just finished watching eat pray love and it was a very good movie i must say! it was super duper long but it was good. also i hate how cold they keep damn movie theaters! i mean come on! they should have a warning saying you will in fact lose all feeling to your body due to that we are assholes and keep it five degrees in here. next time i go to the movies im taking my blanket. but instead of stuffing my face with pop corn and candy like most people do at the movies i sipped on my diet coke happily threw out the movie.
i have manage to get the nickname sniffles. why? well because i am always sick! no matter what. summer winter fall spring im sick sick sick. my nose is always well sniffling so my friend have began calling me sniffles.
but this is just a short update from earlier im still pretty annoyed that i cant put pictures on here! i will get to the bottom of this!
stay strong!
xoxo thin is beauty

really day two!

well its not as bad as i thought im not really hungry! i've been drinking all day like juice water ect. i've been calming im deathly ill and cannont hold anything down to my parents. they're buying it so far. but i do have to go to eat pray love tonight with my mom and aunt. i will not be getting anything but diet coke/pepsi. no candy or anything like that. i have been reading all day today and im a huge book worm you could say. i love reading i could do it all day and not be bothered a bit. im currently reading big fat manifesto which as you can guess is a book about a fat girl. i really enjoy reading books about people with eating disorders and books about fat people i dont know why i just do and its kinda like thinspo to me.
but anyways back to my fast! okay so i've learned apple cider is a great drink to have! i mean it fills you up very nicely:) also crystal light packets are my new love! they have almost no calories and make water taste great! my breakfast are now cigaretts. ya ya i smoke i dont wanna hear all the lung cancer wrinkles blah blah blah. its one or two cigs a day it'll be fine but anyways they curve your hunger for a while so i'm not hungry for breakfast. i do not recommend smoking or suggest anyone should start im just saying that i do. i would post some thinspo but my computer for some reason wont let me:/ so stay strong loves! keep it up! well all get to our goals soon!
nothing tastes as good as thin feels<3
xoxo thin is beauty

day two!

well actually its day one for me on my fast:/ i ended up having some yogurt yesterday but i havent ate anything but that. so i guess im doing good:) i've just been drinking lots and lots! keeps my hunger away! im trying really really hard to get down to my goal weight but i can only lose so much so fast. which sucks.
lately i've been talking so some of my ana buddies about diet pills. i mean i dont know if you can get them before your 18 or not but i dont know and i sure dont want to go into a store and try to get them and have them be like well your underage you cant get these. so thus im going to do my research and figure out whether i can or cannot get them. i know laxs are a bad idea because they usually end up making you gain weight they ONLY make you lose water weight so i dont think i will be taking those anytime soon.
due to a party i went to last night i am super tired today and have zero energy and just want to sleep. i will not be putting one ounce of food in my mouth:) im just exhausted today!
well i hope you all are doing good and my blog is helping you all stay strong<3
xoxo thin is beauty

thinspire me

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Iw0kHgUrP3A&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ryahMDzDl28&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSBLiGUSv0w&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rS3lloB_8c4&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jI7rCRZh9K8&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=3BC0dBk3ndc

just some great thinspo videos that i try and watch everyday! its great modivation!

i hope that helps everyone!

today im starting a ten day fast. well im going to try! it can hurt i guess, after im off the fast i'm going to try and only eat very small meals, so i dont binge. i learned that if i just stop eating then if i dont control what im eating the fast does nothing due to my binge, even if i do purge it up. i've heard from people that the ten day fast is also known as a "cleanse". cleanse or fast i dont care as long as it helps me lose these last couple pounds! i know im getting pretty close to my goal! just last month being 124 pounds! now im a whole 103:) im still pretty disapointed in myself for getting up to that weight but it happens and now im making myself thin again! i've noticed my hips are showing more and my ribs are too! not too bad though but im hoping by the time im at my goal my hips will stick out just a little not too bad but just perfect i guess. wish me luck!


so lastly i've been hearing things like the average person burns 2000 calories on there own every day! now i dont know if thats true or not but if it is that would be great! i mean i try and workout an hour everyday but if im also burning 2000 calories just from everyday activities thats great! i know everyone wants this to be true but im not sure if it is. and i also have been hearing most people burn and 345 calories sleeping, so just laying in bed sleeping can help you so rest up!

just some thinspo:)

 

 
 

 

i hope this gives you some inspiration:)

first blog!

hello my lovlies,
 this is my first blog ever:) in this i will be telling you about my life and my daily experiances as being anorexic and bulimic. i believe they are diseases but i also believe that you can "catch" them. i will be updating how im doing and how close im getting to my goal and what im doing to get there. my current stats are: CW(current weight) 103 GW(goal weight) 90. im 5'1 which is 61 inches. i  will get to my goal! i promises you this. anyone can get to there goal as long as they work at it enough and try hard enough. so please follow me and my journey to my goal weight:) and far after that. i will become thin and beautiful, just like i've always dreamed<3