is it love?

well my no purging is going good. two days so far without it:) thank god. my stomach is still getting used to it though. so im in a bit of pain from all the nonsense going on. normally i purged anything i eat for the most part. right now im just eating veggies pretty much sometimes fruit. for the past two days i've had a salad with brocoli, lettuce, celery, and carrots. its really good i love it and best part all the veggies are neg cals:D love it lol. and keeps me super full like amazingly full. then i usually have a can of veggie soup. i have fallen in love with vegatable soup:) its sooo good!! and most of the veggies in it are neg cals too so i dont feel guilty about it. just a reminder they will not say -10 cals or anything on the food. it will say the calories that are in it BUT your body burns more calories digesting and everything with them. so its great ahah. i have been bloated though:/ so i feel really fat:( but i know it has to be bloat cuz i cant really gain weight from something that isnt fattening or even have calories really in it so.
ahh the guy im sort of with (we just dont have the whole your my boyfriend your my girlfriend title, although i have been refered to by his friends as his girl friend:D ) but anyways my new nickname is Barbie ahha, cuz im just so perfect and my hair smells like barbie hair? ahah i dunno. but i was like shit yes!!!! made my day ahah. but i think things with him are going good:) maybe it will be official soon? either way im happy ahah he's really amazing and makes me feel safe aha. well he is about 6'2 and im only 5'1 so i can just curl up in his lap:p its so nice:) he was being super sweet and affectionate last time we were together:) even in front of his friend which is something new:) just makes me feel better. also i rejected my ex, who i was engaged to at one point which is huge for me cuz usually i crawl back to him. he's just too controlling i guess for me. plus im pretty sure he's a chubby chaser since he always complains i need to gain and am grossly skinny, when i was with him he made me gain like twenty pounds that fuck>.> pay back time!! ahah its amazing how things are going:) maybe the new year is a good thing:)
stay safe and stay strong!
xoxo thin is beauty<3