get ready get set..FAST!

hey guys:) so last week i fasted for three days so this week im going for all week!!! i gotta lose for prom!! i've already ordered my dress and everything:D smallest size they had was a 3 so thats what i got:) last year i was a 6:( i will look better this year for sure!! i cant wait:) im hoping to be back under 100 for prom its March 19th so i need to work hard until then and remind myself how worth it it is! since its spring break doing lots of partying! ahah went to parties the last few nights:) its way fun ahha i had never actually been to a party before. well not in a very very very long time lol. it was great ahha. super fun:) im just feelin great! the meds im on make me not crave stuff so i have like no cravings for any foods:) i love it. i plan on staying in bed today and reading and relaxing taking a bath maybe:) i gotta treat myself well if i want to be able to do this:) i've noticed my collar bones are sticking out more which i love! i have a new friend who's like amazingly thin! she's sooo pretty pretty much my new thinspo i guess haha. i kinda wonder if she has an ed but i dont know lol. i've noticed she talks a lot about food too, well i know i do ahha. most people dont bring up how much they eat a day ahah or anything like that but anyways im guna try and figure out if she is or not aha. i guess a girl at my school got hospitlised for her ed and my mom's all talking about it to me pretty much saying she's guna send me to a place or something im like wow mom shut up your the one saying you're guna never eat again and complianing about being fat ughhh why can she do it but i cant? but anyways sorry off track lol but ya now when i see that girl im like wow someone else in this school is like me! i wish you could just tell! like i dunno ahha i wish you just could. eh oh well:)
xoxo thin is beauty<3

long time!

well i feel pretty good today. i havent posted in a while been way lazy and all that. well now my mom is making me see a therapist. which really really sucks. but im on some new meds now ahah good ol xanx for my anxiety and wellbutrin for depression. and i have to say i love both. they make me calm which does not happen a lot. also i dont get like cravings for food like i used to. i've pretty much stopped purging i havent done it in a week. im fasting for a while i just need to ahah but i just like dont get hungry? idk its weird. but i do love it:) it helps a lot:) im not like recommending you go take it unless you are depressed and all that just saying ahha. but i hope i can fast all spring break which is this week. i have no idea why though i mean its snowing still. i though SPRING break was supposed to be in spring? like really what the eff? ahha in like two weeks im going to prom and im like waaaay nervous like ugh im scared i wont look good. i swear to god if look as fat as i did last year im going to go nuts. but i dont think that will happen unless i gain like twenty pounds. but that could happen if i binge like every day until then ahha but that isnt going to happen everytime i want to eat im like your going to be way pissed on prom night when you look fat so just dont it will be worth it and it is:) i feel like i have fantastic will power! its amazing:)