long time!

well i feel pretty good today. i havent posted in a while been way lazy and all that. well now my mom is making me see a therapist. which really really sucks. but im on some new meds now ahah good ol xanx for my anxiety and wellbutrin for depression. and i have to say i love both. they make me calm which does not happen a lot. also i dont get like cravings for food like i used to. i've pretty much stopped purging i havent done it in a week. im fasting for a while i just need to ahah but i just like dont get hungry? idk its weird. but i do love it:) it helps a lot:) im not like recommending you go take it unless you are depressed and all that just saying ahha. but i hope i can fast all spring break which is this week. i have no idea why though i mean its snowing still. i though SPRING break was supposed to be in spring? like really what the eff? ahha in like two weeks im going to prom and im like waaaay nervous like ugh im scared i wont look good. i swear to god if look as fat as i did last year im going to go nuts. but i dont think that will happen unless i gain like twenty pounds. but that could happen if i binge like every day until then ahha but that isnt going to happen everytime i want to eat im like your going to be way pissed on prom night when you look fat so just dont it will be worth it and it is:) i feel like i have fantastic will power! its amazing:)