i hate...

me. just me nothing else. well i hate that fucking scale that doesnt work i hate the fact that my parents wont buy a new scale considering they never use that god damn thing. and i cant just go and be like hey i need a new scale or im going to shoot myself because that one keeps changing. so my fast is going fantastic not really becuae my weight is pissing me the fuck off the day before my fast i was 106 then the next day i was 104 the next day 102 and yesterday 108 what the fucking hell i am beyond pissed like really what the fuck more can i do to lose? im not fucking eating anything. nothing at all i dont even go in my god damn kitchen. today im 106 and im still pissed like really what the fuck am i doing wrong? am i really that fat and disguesting that i cant even fast and lose weight? im so damn tired of this. and i cant really tell anyone why im upset because then they would be like why the fuck do you care so much and just eat. ya its not that fucking simple im just pissed. like fuck i dont know what else i can do. im not fucking eating until im under 100. i can promise you that.